At times like this I realize then, that I truly have nothing. I have everything I need, but I have nothing to give, nothing to share, nothing to show. And that is something, that I have come to discover just recently, which terrifies me tremendously. I am left for a moment in the awkward silence between the ending theme of the program that has just finished playing and the cursor dangling around the 'close' button. I thought about what I was thinking. But more so I thought about what this meant. Still I am clueless.