Even before your nerve cells send the message to your brain. Even before you know that they replied you. Even before you even click on the flashing orange bar that tells you someone just responded.

They go complaining. And by then, you realized the true meaning of the word "terrible". And you realized how a "terrible" day truely feels like. You realized you were in a more "terrible" situation then those whiny little ones.

Tell me why would people even bothered to say the words, "Oh, it's nothing," when they want to tell you how bad their day is? Was it because they said it just to convince you they are in a sorry state? Just to make you stop and listen to their stupid comments about the people that make things difficult for them? To make you frown and weigh you down by their own problems? Or was it because they just wanted to sound sarcastically strong, then break down right in front of you?

Maybe it was because everyone just likes talking about how bad their days had been, that they forgot they are making the listener's day worst than they can imagine. Honestly, even the most isolated person on Earth would be glad if someone was there to listen once in a while. Even the most independent one would, too. And if you were the one who was listening, you'd start asking yourself why you are here. You start asking yourself why you even know this person.

And then you start to blame yourself. Why? Why the hell must I do this to myself? Am I suppose to consol her? Am I suppose to pretend how sorry I felt for her, and reassure her that things would be better, when it never will be? Was it my fault that I don't have a single clue what to say? Am I the one to blame when she feels even more terrible?

Fuck you. Yeah, just fuck the shitballs out of each and every single one of you. How did that feel like? Like you wanted to jump off the building, dash into the middle of the road and get banged down by a fire engine? Or you felt like slitting your wrists and drown in your own blood, in the bathtub of your parent's room?